To My Teachers...

You have filled my small brain with a glorious amount of knowledge since i was 3 feet tall. Now that i've grown and my uniforms are too small, you've long since left my memories but i won't forget the kind words you said to me when i was upset about that one boy stealing my crayons. You helped me spell and color inside the lines, you helped me walk with a book on my head and a teacup in my hand. You watched me write the words cat and dog in my handwriting that looked more like scribbles. You watched me grow from one word pages to full chapter books in a month. You let me cry when i scraped my shins and came to my aid with a band aid in record time. You taught me the error of my ways and the colors of the rainbow. But the one thing i will never forget is how to taught me God's wonderful word and how the Lord died for me and for my sins. You told us the Lord's prayer every morning for 10 months and held our hands together when we prayed to Him. You are my teacher's and you've long since left my memories but i will never forget the kid prayers and gentle whispers of love you sent my way...

My Best Friends...

You don't make me explain myself to you (most of the time). You treat me like a family member when i am at your house. Your parents hug me and you pets wiggle their tails when they see me. Your siblings treat me like their sister. You smile with me, laugh with me and cry with me. You pick me up when i'm down and carry me when i have fallen and cannot get up. Your with me every step through the troubles i face and the horrors i cannot escape. We fight and we don't talk for days, weeks, months or years but we won't ever leave each others sides when we are sad and lonely. When boys and girls are involved we stand up for each other and squeal with each other when that boy or girl says those three words to you. You are my best friends, you are my brothers and sisters, you will be in my heart forever. In that special little place. I love you and your immutability.

To My Lost Love...

Your brown hair makes me wonder, what would life be like without you. Your dark blue eyes make me believe this love could last a lifetime. your perfect white smile make you shine when you enter a room and i smile with you. your perfect red lips make me melt and collapse to the floor. If only this love was real, if only this love could be. If only this love wasn't just a fake fantasy in my mind. I love you with all my heart and in your mind the girl who doesn't hide in the shadows is your one and only. Can i be your one and only? just for a little while at least? The scratches and scars from your harsh words and the brusies and breaks from you laughing with her, makes me crumple down, into the wilting flower you will never water. I try to be noticed by you but she gets in the way. I love you with all my heart and the girl who doesn't hide in the shadows is your one and only...

To My Sisters...

You hug me, you tackle me, you push me to the ground. But i love you. You yell at me, you comfort me and you cry with me. And i love you. You dress up with me and critique my style. But i love you. One of you corrects my ways while the other agrees with my antics. And I love you. One of you is daring while the other hides in their own little corner. And i love you. You cuddle with your pets but not always with me. But i love you. You pick out the pumpkins and the christmas trees with me. And i love you. I fake my tears and stomp my feet, but you love me. And i love you. i pinch you and kick you and you return the favors. But i love you. You two are my greatest gifts that The Lord has blessed me with...And i love you

I Remember the Old Days...

I remember the old days when life didn't matter and you could dance in the wind without a care in the world. Making daisy chaines with friends who didn't judge you. I miss those days when i cried for my sorrows not for what i wanted. I miss those days when my pale skin was gently kissed by the sun and was not burned by the touch of it. i miss those days when my mother and father picked me up and threw me against the sky and danced with me in the rain. I miss those days when the smell of autumn sank through the roof over our heads and into our noses. I miss those days when the snow would crackle and crunch beneath our feet and we would sip the hot chocolate that would burn our delicate tongues.

I recall the days when a birthday would pass by and families would kiss each other's cheeks because they loved them. I recall the days when a grandmother would tell a story and the small children would laugh and cry at the mention of a name. I recall the days when the sunsets were vibrant and the world was at peace. I recall the days when hats on my head and the boots on my feet weren't too big nor too small. i recall the days when a brother would hide behind his hands and i would laugh when he reappeared.

I want the days when we listened to the birds on a blanket in the park. I want the days when we picked the strawberries from the garden and plucked the blueberries off the bushes. I want the days when we yelled at each other, debating about colors in a nursery. I want the days when i would run my hands through your sandy blonde hair and smelled your body wash. I want the days when i would fix my hair and fiddle around with the diamond ring on my finger. I want the days when a baby girl was put down for bed and kissed on the nose. i want the days when that baby girl took her first steps across the pink carpet to you.

I remember the old days when everything was calm, and nothing went wrong. I remember the old days when life didn't matter and you could dance in the wind without a care in the world. I remember the old days when everything was perfect and nothing would ever change...until today. I've grown old and frail, missing you with every beat of my weakened heart. I lost you today, to age that has long surpassed mine. Not much older just a short while. Your heart was weaker than mine and I took care of you. I remember the old days when you came to my aid, with soup or a bandage, depending on the day. When we were young, dancing in the rain, kissing under the trees as the autumn leaves fell. I remember those days...but the memories are slipping away from me now. I remember. i remember. I remember...not much anymore.